Saying goodbye is never easy. I have said several goodbyes in the past year. In some aspects, it gets easier, but in others, it becomes more difficult. It gets easier because you get used to not seeing your family and friends for longer periods of time. However, it gets harder because seeing your friends and family happens less often. Everyone gets busy and moves on with their new life. People get jobs, internships, and other obligations and may not have the money or time to visit you as much as they use to.
I said goodbye to my friends from home almost two weeks ago, and it is still hard to see them hanging out, even though you were the one that left them. I remember saying goodbye to them the first time and realizing how it almost didn’t feel real. The next day, I remember driving down to school to start my freshman year. During that drive, I listened to a Spotify playlist my friend made me and I started to cry. I didn’t cry because I missed them already; I cried because I loved them. One of my guy friends made me a playlist, which to this day is still one of the most memorable things a friend has ever done for me. Some of my friends also wrote me letters. I read them on the drive down while listening to my playlist. My friends showed me how much they cared, not by what they said, but by what they did. My friends were such a solid group of people. It is hard to find people like them. We are not just friends; we are a family. Saying goodbye to them this time was less emotional for me. I know my friends still care about me, but we are now used to being apart from each other. I may not know exactly when I will see them again, but I know I will soon. I will visit them when I can and hope some can visit me. One of my guy friends visited me last semester, and it meant the world to me that he saved up money to come to see my new life and explore my home.
I said goodbye to my parents over a week ago. This year I didn't have any tears leaving them because it has become such a normal part of my life. I remember freshman year of college, every time they left or I left them I would get emotional. This time was different. I have no idea when I will see my family or friends again, but even knowing that, I still wasn't able to become emotional. I know it is just all part of growing up. This year, I feel confident in who I am, who I want to be and feel ready to take on more this year. I’m confident in my ability to take on my second year of college.
Forever Always,
Emily
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